“I’ve lost a lot of people in my life and it’s been tough. Did you know there is a lot to learn from losing people? I’ve almost lost my whole family, my parents, one of my sisters and one of my brothers. What I’ve learnt from that is that you only know how much you love someone when they’re gone. Shortly after my loss I quickly realized that I had established a much better relationship with my other siblings. We could talk for hours at a time about how much we love our parents and our childhood. It was a weird feeling because it suddenly felt like our childhood got a lot better just by talking about it. The morning my dad died I was at home with my family. I got a call from Kenya as I lived in Sweden at the time, he said “he’s dead” and I didn’t have to think twice about who he meant. He meant my dad. My son didn’t understand anything but I still struggled to tell him the terrible news. I was under the weather for quite a while, I thought about moving back to Kenya actually but I couldn’t do that to my son because a sudden change in a kids life isn’t good. I quickly got back on my feet as I consistently went to work. I think i went to work every day as a way to forget that i lost the man that I love the most. My job was keeping me joyful. I love my job and everything about it. It’s simple, I work in a warehouse in Jordbro a few minutes outside of Stockholm. I’ve worked there ever since I got my citizenship and I’ve been satisfied almost the whole time. I regret not completing my examination because I think it could have got me a lot more opportunities than I have at the moment. The reason I didn’t complete the exams is because i moved to England mid term. I didn’t have any motivation in life, I was bored as hell. I didn’t see the reason to do something for so long when i had the money I needed to move the hell out of there. I’ve been through  a lot and what I’ve come to realize is that it’s a death trap to lie to yourself because you subconsciously think you’re fine when you’re really not and that can lead to many consequences. You’ll become oblivious to many things in life such as your own economy. What I mean by that is when you’re trying to convince someone that you’re rich, you’ll start believing it too.”

Alex O 9B